Monday, July 6, 2009
Do you need proof of things for them to satisfy you? I am back to teaching today. Did I need proof that I missed the students? I half joked that it was quite a guilty pleasure to take 3 weeks off; perhaps I could grow used to it!
It was obvious to me after the evening was over that I adore spending time with these wonderful young people. But yes, I do need to feel that feeling. I am in a state of reevaluating a lot about my life, who I am, what I am, and what I do. I have been questioning my roles in the multi-faceted world in which I live. I have three jobs, children and spouse. There are four if you want to count my composing as a "job". Although busy, these jobs overlap and work together, and bring much color and variety to my life. However, sometimes I DO need proof that validates my time and how I'm spending it.
On television there is a "Naked Archeologist" episode (great show, by the way) in which the proof is inconclusive about King Solomon and whether he existed, whether he built a temple, whether he built fortified gates at Meggido, Hazor, and Gezzar. The archeologists do not agree on the time periods of each site. They do not agree on the artifacts. Are the artifacts real or forgeries? They need the proof or they will not believe.
So, do I need archeology evidence to trust whether Solomon existed? Yes, sometimes I do. It would certainly be easier to believe if there was indisputable tangible evidence. Do you? Do you have faith on something when evidence may only speculate? What about your life do you take on faith? Have you questioned why you're doing what you're doing? Does it frighten you to do so?
A friend of mine says that to question the things in my life is to potentially upset the apple cart. "If it's going fine, why would you want to ruin it", she urged. I countered, "Why would you want to continue doing something just because that's how you've always done it?" It made her too uncomfortable to continue the discussion.
Where do you stand?
"Faith is taking the first step when you don't see the whole staircase."
Martin Luther King, Jr.